So, that was surreal.
I also did not expect to lose my breath and forget how to speak. Other winners had told me before that this happened, but I thought, well, in the unlikely event that it comes up, I'm accustomed to public speaking so I'll just go make a joke and it will be fine. Instead, I wandered in a daze and had to be directed on how to use stairs. Well, not quite that bad.
The award is very pretty, and rather heavy, at least on one arm while you're dazed.
I think I did a lot of glazed nodding at people.
I am genuinely deeply honored that people thought this novella was worth recognition. I have deep admiration for the other nominees in my category--Ted Chiang, Geoffrey Landis, Paul Park, J. Kathleen Cheney, and Paolo Bacigalupi. I was kind of amazed to be allowed in their sandbox to begin with.
I was going to end on a joke, but I forgot the joke, and I can't come up with another joke because apparently my brain is fried. I think I might have been raptured last night; I feel dizzy like I might be flying and things are going unexpectedly well.